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Tuesday 4 February 2014

WANTED: Female Authors' Tips for Lone Wolf with Issues.



This is my first post for IWSG  http://www.insecurewriterssupportgroup.com/p/iwsg-sign-up.html ... and I'm feeling nervous and excited for the same reason. As my post title suggests, I'm a Lone Wolf, yet here I am about to take another plunge into very social waters. Not so long ago I could not have imagined myself doing this. Two posts ago I even talked about some hurdles and the benefits of being social, but now I'm about to walk my talk.

And guess what, I believe I'm enjoying myself! Prior to enjoyment, my emotion was fear. Fear of interaction and fear of the time it takes to interact. I just wanted to put my head down and write, publish my book and get on with the next one. I had no time for time wasting. I see things differently now mostly because I was forced to, but also because I realised, thank goodness, that it's good and healthy for my creative processes to be social.

Having said that, what do I want?

I'm wondering how some authors deal with 3 issues, namely
  • Health. Chronic Illness which exhausts and slows you down whilst,
  • Self-publishing, self-promoting, living alone. Being a Lone Wolf and,
  • Money. Income insufficient to support a gnat.
Now many of you will have traveled the hard money and self-publishing road already, but how many of you have a chronic illness as well? Oh and are female? What I'm saying is, that to qualify to answer, you must be
  • female, 
  • live alone, 
  • do everything, 
  • have a chronic illness, 
  • self-publish, self-promote, AND 
  • have less income than expenses. 
How do you/did you deal with these issues together, not singly, but particularly the money one, because this one directly and indirectly affects all the others? I'm interested to know because this is where I find myself now. Now is 8 short ebooks self-published (no income in my pocket so far), the first draft of a memoir complete and many more ideas waiting to be written. Now is where I've faced several writing hurdles and am still here. Now is where I'm about to cross the social threshold of the writing road.

So is being social about "I'll read and edit your book/create a cover if you read and edit my book", and bouncing ideas off one another? Is it about asking for help and not pretending that you're doing fine when you really do have issues?

I don't know yet but am hoping to find out very soon. So yes, I am nervous and excited.

As to that memoir, it's called BROKEN. A Memoir of Breakdown, and here's a snippet. I hope to have it published within a month, all going well.

Until next time

Leonie

from BROKEN - Introduction

"In March of 1998, I had a nervous breakdown.
It officially started on the morning of Thursday 12th at about 8am when I had the first of what-were-to-be many severe, full-blown panic attacks. Of course, I had no idea what was happening and my not knowing caused me to panic even more. From March until December of that year I experienced what it was like to have my life held in limbo. I suffered daily with extreme anxiety and became deeply depressed. I was a complete mess, unable to function normally on a day to day basis.


To say those months were painful, and the road to wholeness afterwards was rough would be an understatement, but life had to carry on. I wasn’t suicidal, didn’t want to die, but there were times then when I felt so bad, so far down, that I didn’t know if I could ever get up again. I didn’t know, while in that state, if I would be able to stop myself from ending it all. What if I was I capable of tricking myself into ending my life?"









18 comments:

  1. Welcome to IWSG, Leonie. Good for you to put yourself forward. You've had a rough road. Glad to hear you're making your way forward. As a self-pubbed writer (traditional, too), getting your name out "there" is really important. Extremely hard to do but you've taken your first step. Best wishes.

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    1. Thanks Diane. I know I'm not the only one and that there are many others, but it's wonderful to hear words of encouragement and support. I'm on my way "there".

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  2. Chronic illness, check. The rest... I'm a home schooling mom to 3, president of a very demanding children's organization, and doing the writing/promotion gig. Thankfully I've got my hubby's income to supplement, but the conclusion I've come to is this: you can only do what you can do, especially when dealing with illness. You do you best, and then just have to accept that it is your best. It may not be what other people can accomplish, but no one else faces your challenges either. I waited 20 years to jump in, and wouldn't have done it without my husband pushing me out the door--not with all these other demands.

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    1. Crystal you amaze me! Now I truly know I am not alone! Thank goodness for this group. Usually I have acceptance and I'm at peace with myself and my world. But sometimes the fear sneaks back, and that's one of the reasons I became social. I hope I can contribute too.

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  3. Leonie, I'm so glad you decided to become social and join the group. It is SO supportive and wonderful. It's nice to know there are other writers out there who are going through the same thing.

    I wish I could offer advice about what you're going through physically and financially. When I'm feeling low I pray. That's not for everyone, I know, but it's a great way to remember we're not in this alone :)

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    1. Hi Julie, thank you for your kind words. More and more I realise the importance of being social. In fact, I can still be both, Lone Wolf when I write, social when I need lovely people like you. I suppose that's how it's meant to be.

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  4. I'm not single, nor do I have a chronic illness, but I wanted to comment nonetheless. I've struggled with being social for a long time now. Just saying hello takes a lot of work, despite it seeming so simple. What's worked for me is starting small--interacting with my critique partners online, reading their blogs, and commenting on them. It's not always about books or trading services.

    Nice excerpt from your memoir. Best of luck with it and your ebooks!

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    1. Loni, hi and thanks, nice to meet you. I'm glad you commented because you're right when you say "hello takes a lot of work". This is another reason it has taken me almost a year to connect. I don't as yet have critique partners but how would I find them if I stayed in my hidey-hole? I look forward to meeting new friends.

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  5. Welcome to the group!!! Wow, wish I had answers for you. I too, haven't made a lot from my novel, however, though I lone-wolf-it while I'm writing, I do have a husband who gives me the space, and some financing, to follow my dream. I feel for you and wish you all the best. From your mss bit at the end, I hope you don't mind a few reflections? Maybe work on writing in a fresh way, different from what we've heard before about this kind of experience. Example: using "would be an understatement" (cliche) tells us what you're trying to say, but not in an original fashion, or a way that might entice us to read more... I hope you don't mind, just thought it might help to look at the experience from a "literary" view instead of what actually happened to you? I wish you well and look forward to hearing how you're doing... See you next month on IWSG!

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  6. Hi Lisa, thanks for the welcome and the comments, they're much appreciated. It's good to know that we're all the same yet unique in our writing journeys. I'm interested in your 'literary' take on my book. Do you mean write it more as a story rather than a personal experience?

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  7. Hi Leonie.
    Congratulations on taking that first step!
    I too was terrified at the thought of going the social route and connecting with others online. You'll find the IWSG writers to be a friendly and supportive bunch, always willing to offer a shoulder or lend a helping hand when you need it. You've come to the right place!
    Welcome aboard!
    Writer In Transit

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    1. Thanks Michelle. It seems crazy now that I waited so long but everything in its time. I've just discovered that what I write is creative nonfiction (hiding self behind tablet so no-one can see my green colour, oh dear)...
      Up to this point I just wrote. Now I'm seeking more detail. I love uncovering writing. There's always something new. I 'all have some questions soon, lol.

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  8. Welcome to the group, taking the decision to join is one I am sure you will not regret. The support and companionship in the writing community is amazing. I hope you manage to find the answers to some of your questions and I wish you all the best on your writing journey.

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    1. Thanks Suzanne. I've had such a warm welcome that I no longer feel the 'Lone Wolf' so much. I'm excited about getting to know the group more and I feel like I have support already. I'm sure the answers are will come.

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  9. Welcome to IWSG! I'm not single, but because of his work, spend 4 / 7 days alone with our girls. I do have a chronic illness, but try not to let it get the better of me. Fibromyalgia is painful & depressing, but I also teach / do yoga, which helps. I've self-published a picture book in 2012, but now after years of trying have a literary agent. I have a low-paying job to keep my head above the water, so I can stay home and write. I think one of my biggest assets (faults!) is I'm stubborn. I refuse to give up my dream. I just keep on, keeping on. It's the only way for me to achieve my goals, and I try not to let my troubles in life get me down.

    Best to you. :)

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  10. I'm a fighter/stubborn too :) We have to be don't we? It helps with the writing process as well. I'll certainly never give up. Thank you for the welcome Candilynn, I know where you're coming from.

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  11. Oh man! what a hard life writers lead! and why does it sound as if all of us suffer from some mental problem or another, especially depression? anyway, we are fighters and I love your honesty in this post. I salute you my fellow "female" writer.

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  12. Lol, we are survivors aren't we Haneen? I read somewhere recently that adversity/anxiety/depression forces creativity, or something close to that. I would never have seen it like that then, but it was true. Still is! And thank you.

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